signs

Do our lost children send us signs?

By May 2, 2017 One Comment
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–This entry was originally written two days after my son died and posted here

Today I came back to my favorite place. Alone. Or so I felt. I talked to my baby boy the whole drive asking him where he was and quietly requesting that he come to me as often as he can.

I arrived in the parking lot and turned on my iPod for the first time in probably 8 months and put my ear buds in to hear a song already playing. Although I have heard this one, I don’t listen to it nor do I have it on any playlists.

I looked down to the screen and read that it was an R.E.M. tune from their GREEN 💚 album, which I immediately associated with my sweet boy who loved all things green. And I smiled.

Then….the lyrics streamed into my ears and I realized that my boy had heard me loud and clear and already is telling me that he won’t ever leave me.

The song….11th Untitled Song

the lyrics….

this world is big and so-awake
i stayed up late to hear your voice
this light is here to keep you warm
this song is here to keep you strong

i made a list of things to say
but all i want to say
all i really want to say is
hold her and keep him strong
while i’m away from here
hold her and keep her strong
while i’m away from here

i’ve seen the world and so-awake
and stay up late to hear me sing
just hold her
i’ve seen the world and so-awake
and stay up late to hear me sing
just hold him
hold her and keep her strong
while i’m away from here
hold him and keep him strong
while i’m away from here

I LOVE YOU SWEET CHASE! I will always remember you on this swing in our favorite spot. Thank you for my message today. We miss you so much.

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